[ It's only by the strength of how much Souji respects Kondou-san that his hand is staying away from his blade at all in this moment. She's like a dog with a bone, he thinks, because for some damned reason she's not letting this go at all. What is he supposed to do? (tell her the truth, souji, duh) Kill her? He can't. She wasn't an enemy of the Shinsengumi. Thoughts fly through his mind, but not one sticks. Hijikata-san would know what to do, wouldn't he, the vice-commander of the Shinsengumi with a diplomat's tongue. Maybe Souji should take page out of the demon vice-commander's book. The only problem was which page? Actually, what was the point of wondering what Hijikata-san would do when Souji wouldn't be able to do anything he could do in the first place? ]
[ souji internally screaming tbh... This would be much easier if he had a softer, more bendable nature. If he was Heisuke, easily scolded, or Saitou, quiet and logical. Or even Shinpachi, who'd probably hang his head and mutter a quick apology. But he's not any of these people. He's too stubborn, and yes prideful, to lose face here. So it's with gritted teeth that he manages to eke out the words - ]
If you think this is me being defensive, then that's because you haven't been listening at all.
[ how many times does he have to scream "i'm not sick, honest" without resorting to jazz sword hands ]
But you want the truth? [ he can be honest. ] Fine. It's because it's not any of your goddamned business.
Except she refrains from saying that out loud in here in a public place. Admittedly just barely but then she's gritting her teeth and stopping herself mid-sentence, glancing around them for a a place that isn't so.... out in the open. Especially since she doesn't want to ask him about this so obviously anymore.
So for a second, she's going to put this on pause.]
[ His gaze cuts to the crowd around him in the same way Lili does, not relaxing even when he doesn't see any familiar faces. In any other situation, Souji would agree to go somewhere more private, but now... ]
I don't have anything more to say to you.
[ that's right lili, he's LEAVING!! or retreating, whichever. What if he snaps and tries to murder her in sketchy alleyway or something? He's not leaving that kind of thing to chance. And he's also tired at this vein of conversation. It comes too close to Hijikata nagging at him, and it hits home at most of his worries. Better to just stop here. Souji relaxes his hands and turns, intent on leaving first. ]
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[ souji internally screaming tbh... This would be much easier if he had a softer, more bendable nature. If he was Heisuke, easily scolded, or Saitou, quiet and logical. Or even Shinpachi, who'd probably hang his head and mutter a quick apology. But he's not any of these people. He's too stubborn, and yes prideful, to lose face here. So it's with gritted teeth that he manages to eke out the words - ]
If you think this is me being defensive, then that's because you haven't been listening at all.
[ how many times does he have to scream "i'm not sick, honest" without resorting to jazz sword hands ]
But you want the truth? [ he can be honest. ] Fine. It's because it's not any of your goddamned business.
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[-- you coughed up blood on me, you dickwad.
Except she refrains from saying that out loud in here in a public place. Admittedly just barely but then she's gritting her teeth and stopping herself mid-sentence, glancing around them for a a place that isn't so.... out in the open. Especially since she doesn't want to ask him about this so obviously anymore.
So for a second, she's going to put this on pause.]
We're going somewhere less crowded.
[SHE'S ALREADY DECIDED. Come along, Souji.]
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I don't have anything more to say to you.
[ that's right lili, he's LEAVING!! or retreating, whichever. What if he snaps and tries to murder her in sketchy alleyway or something? He's not leaving that kind of thing to chance. And he's also tired at this vein of conversation. It comes too close to Hijikata nagging at him, and it hits home at most of his worries. Better to just stop here. Souji relaxes his hands and turns, intent on leaving first. ]