[AAAA FUCK OFF SOUJI HE KNOWS YOU'RE DOING THIS ON PURPOSE!!!!!
Kashuu just gives him a look... A discomforted, displeased look!! Because one option here is straight-up saying that he wanted to sit by Souji, not across from him, and - it's not like he's usually tongue-tied when it comes to the things he wants! Only when it involves a certain, very few people, ah...
So he hems and he haws for a few, and then eventually just
stands
and picks up his cushion
and moves it over riiight next to where Souji's put his
[ EXCUSE HE'S NOT DOING ANYTHING ON PURPOSE. He might have actually just meant to sit there because that's how it always is whenever Kashuu comes over! And then Souji's face creases into his usual smile. ]
If you wanted me to sit next to you, then you should have said it out loud.
[ It's more contact than Souji's used to from Kashuu, even if Kashuu is naturally kind of touchy, so maybe he should feel awkward. Especially for Souji, who values his own space and gets tetchy when people touch him without his say-so. ]
[ This is strange, Souji thinks, even as he leans into Kashuu a little in response. It's strange, but it doesn't feel that way. Anyway, something like this hardly qualifies as touching. Maybe that's why. ]
[ The longer they stay like this, the more Souji is tempted to pet Kashuu like he would a cat tbh. ]
So, are you happy now?
[ Are you happy that you're sitting next to him, Kashuu ]
[What the heck, no one's brought the tsun out in full force like this in 100 years, and yet - here they are?! Good work, Souji.
He's also at pretty perfect range for headpats, okay. Please do. Please give into that temptation because he's even leaning his head toward Souji a little (though that's actually less a plea for pats and more because he wants to see if he can get away with resting it on Souji's arm.)]
[HE'S DEFINITELY EMBARRASSED and he's just making it worse for himself, honestly?! UGH.
But.
He's also 100% going for the bronze and laying his head there. Aw yeah, mission success - even if Souji's shoulders are shaking and it makes for a bit of a bumpy pillow, THAT'S FINE. He feels more content now.]
[ At least his shoulders aren't shaking from violent coughs, small mercies. ]
[ Anyway, his laughing fit caused by Kashuu's Tsun finally subsides, even though Kashuu's protests are totally lame because he's obviously embarrassed. Souji shifts just a little, but only to press in closer so they're both more comfortable. Then he raises his hand, the free one, to hover in front of Kashuu's face and ]
[ flicks him lightly on the forehead. ]
At least you're not letting it stop you.
[ Stop Kashuu from being touchy, he means. He only has a vast amount of respect for people who do things they're totally embarrassed by. Like Hijikata when he's writing bad poetry. ]
No okay ugh, what the heck, that's not the headpat he wanted. His nose scrunches up, but he just turns his face in toward Souji's arm instead to keep his IRRITATING HAND AT BAY. Rude.]
I said I'm not embarrassed, okay! It's just-- I just, like... [Ah, that's when you know the tsuntsun streak has been riled. When he actually has trouble articulating things...]
...I mean, it's not like I mind being able to come visit you or anything! But it would be nice if you weren't always so, like, over there! While I'm over here!
[THIS IS AWFUL. AWFUL BECAUSE YES!! BUT ALSO NO! BUT ALSO, YES.]
I— [HNGH. UGH. He's choking up. His words are getting stuck. Is this what Lili feels like all the time?? He pulls away and shoves Souji instead because he's five years old.]
Maybe! I just like being by your side, that's all!
[ but wow, Kashuu said it. the most embarrassing thing Souji has heard from someone to date. Even more embarrassing than some of the things Chizuru has said. Congratulations, Kashuu. You're an otome heroine, but the tsun kind. ]
Maybe? Even though that's basically the same thing?
[ his body sways a little from the shove (and from the laughter). stop making him laugh he's gonna tb. but he calms down long enough to right himself, still grinning. Long enough for him to raise a hand ]
[ and rest it on Kashuu's head, his palm on the tsukumogami's forehead like he's gonna shove Kashuu back. ]
I guess it's a good thing that I don't mind your company then.
[THE SMALLER THEY ARE, THE MORE COMPACT THEIR FURY IS or something... He'll try to calm down and stop being so APPARENTLY ENTERTAINING though, since the last thing anyone needs is a tb-ing Souji.
But is this... headpat? Headpat?? A headpat of his very own?! He squints a little at first, like he's bracing for the shove to follow, but it... doesn't?! What does this mean. And ugh, he can't even be that mad that Souji's still being a jerk because he sees that tsuntsun sentiment there and he understands it and maybe he's feeling a tiny friendship doki in this moment.]
...Good! 'Cause I'm really nice company to have!
[HUFFS AND PUFFS and maybe leans forward a little like please pat my head.]
[ But not as well, because Souji looks down at Kashuu leaning in and promptly does not resist the urge that is also calling at him, now that his hand is conveniently on Kashuu's head. He moves his hand up and musses up Kashuu's hair for a second. Then, Souji finally, finally pats him. ]
[ Not once, but twice. Then he sort of starts stroking Kashuu's head like he's a cat because now that he's started he can't stop?! But he doesn't find anything wrong with this picture?! He just wants to pat Kashuu?! ugh there's even an absence of internal screaming ]
It's been a long time since he's gotten headpats, okay... From a Souji anyway since he's pretty much constantly running up to other people like "PAT MY HEAD!!! TELL ME I DID GOOD!!" but he can't do that with Souji because It's Complicated™ and he's tired and he tsuns so hard that it makes him even more tired but
that's fine now because... he got his headpats.
TWO whole headpats.
And a lot of that tsuntsun melts away into satisfaction when Souji apparently decides that Kashuu is Catshuu, because this is all he's ever wanted from life, okay. Never stop.]
Yeah, well... Persistence is a good trait to have. Haruji's said so before, even.
[ Good, because Souji's in no mood to stop stroking Catshuu. It's kind of endearing to see him look so satisfied. Souji's mood doesn't seem to be growing any less affectionate at the moment, which should be strange, but isn't. Touching Kashuu makes him happy, in a way he rarely ever is. It reminds him of a younger time and a younger him, soaking up Kondou's praise. ]
[ Maybe they really are more alike than he expected. And the thought doesn't even bother him. ]
I'm not surprised. [ He might not know Haru very well, but that seems exactly like the sort of thing an indulgent master would say. ]
You could try being a little more honest too. [ Instead of being a MEGA TSUN ] Being persistent works out a lot better when you're straightforward about it.
[ Souji Hypocrite Okita says, as he threads his fingers through Kashuu's hair and pats him on the head again... ]
[That's... that's a partial-truth, which totally counts as additional honesty, right?! Right.
And more importantly, he doesn't want to hear this shit from Souji "I can't express emotions honestly to save my life" Okita, hot damn. LET HIM REST!! ...Even though he probably could rest here if he really wanted to. The weight of Souji's palm on his head is nostalgic and warm, and even now, it makes him feel safe and wanted. He doesn't feel as ridiculously hungry for attention anymore either, since he's being paid plenty of it now... Honestly, this is - pretty nice. Comforting. He hadn't really been feeling anxious in the first place, but it somehow seems like more tension leaves his shoulders every time Souji's hand smooths down his hair or musses it up or pats his head.
So-- since he's feeling so at home, he lets himself curl up against Souji's side a little, tucking his head down and leaning heavily against his arm.]
[ ugh partial truths totally count. they count to Souji, who's just as honest as Kashuu is t b h ]
[ anyway, what a cute. That is, the way Kashuu folds into him is met only with a bit of surprise and not surprise in the "what are you doing" way and more of the "I didn't think you actually liked my company this much, but since you're here I don't dislike it" way. Kashuu's less of a cat and more like a person Souji just wants to spoil now... Souji stops, drawing his hand back from Kashuu. ]
[ But then he wraps the arm Kashuu was leaning against around the tsukumogami instead, pulling him to his chest in a one-armed hug. ]
You're welcome.
[ Cheerfully, as if Souji totally didn't do something uncharacteristic and otome. and he brings up his free hand to resume patting Kashuu, because of course he has to. It makes Souji happy, so why not? ]
[IS THIS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN CHIZURU ISN'T HERE. All of Souji's otome points go to his sword instead??
Not that Kashuu's complaining! Though he does look ready to do just that as soon as the headpats stop, he's placated immediately by the closeness that follows. He likes being spoiled, so of course he loves hugs and being held as much as he enjoys headpats... There is no form of spoiling that he's truly immune to.
Quietly, a part of him wonders if this sort of thing is the reason the Souji he remembers attracted such soft-hearted people. Even though his reputation is awful, it's easy to forget that in the face of so much comfort, isn't it? For him, at least - even though boy, on any other day, he sure would be filled with Conflict™ right now. Today, he can only feel grateful that he's being humored. It's a lonely feeling, when you want to be held but no one is willing to do that.]
—I could fall asleep right here, probably.
[It's an idle, muffled statement after a few moments of silence that Kashuu is too comfortable to fill up with his usual chattiness.]
Oh? Even though you're not sleepy often? How rare.
[ Souji jokes, echoing Kashuu i'm not sleepy im TIRED Kiyomitsu. But he also sounds softer, far more affectionate than he's ever been used to being around anyone. It is comfortable staying like this. A different sort of comfort Souji took from an empty apartment. It's the warmer sort, the kind that comes with the company of people Souji likes best. How strange. Did that mean he thought of Kashuu as someone like that? ]
[ Well, the thing Souji's sure of at the moment is that stroking Kashuu's head is satisfying, and that he doesn't feel an urge to stop. ]
If you want to sleep, then go ahead. I don't have anywhere else to be.
Look, it's just, like - I dunno. Cozy here or something!
[SAID IN FULL TSUNTSUN but he sure isn't moving, either. Does he even realize how embarrassing half the shit he says is?? No, no he doesn't, since he seems perfectly fine with just admitting these things out loud.
But even though he's verbally tsunning, his expression is pretty much the most content ever, since his head is ducked and he knows Souji can't see it. This is nice, he thinks. It makes his heart feel full and warm, hearing that kind of affection, just having a place to rest where he feels safe. He hopes he won't have any nightmares like this.]
...I'm gonna take a quick nap, then. Just a quick one, 'kay?
[That's enough for him. He'll fully curl up right against Souji's side, tilting his head so he can still get his pats, and then--
Suddenly, some sakura petals drift by. Did Souji leave a window open? Did they just lock into a route??
No. No, it's only Kashuu Kiyomitsu the ridiculous sword, so content that he's reached sakura fubuki status. A few petals definitely just materialized out of nowhere around his head, what the fuck.]
[ How is Kashuu still going for tsun gold when he's draped all over Souji and accepting headpats like a satisfied cat, Souji doesn't know. But he thinks it's funny and endearing at the moment, so he just grins. ]
[ And then looks confused as sakura petals suddenly flutter all over Kashuu's head??? That gets him to stop headpatting for a second, instead scooping up a petal and looking down at it. ]
[ It's a petal. From a flower. ]
[ ???? ]
[ He picks up a couple more, gathering them in his palm. He has half a mind to ask Kashuu about it, but even the appearance of random ass petals can't wholly convince him to disturb Kashuu's "quick" nap. He'll just tuck these into his sleeves and wait till Kashuu wakes up. ]
[It's a talent, being tsun as heck even when literally taking a nap against someone...
It seems that he really was feeling a little sleepy, since he stirs when the headpats stop but otherwise seems content to just stay where he is. It'll probably be an hour or so before he wakes up again... SO MUCH FOR "QUICK NAP".]
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[ But Souji doesn't mind too much that Kashuu rudely spurned his great manners and gets a seat cushion. ]
[ Then he plops it down across from Kashuu and sits. ]
[ THERE, HAPPY? ]
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Kashuu just gives him a look... A discomforted, displeased look!! Because one option here is straight-up saying that he wanted to sit by Souji, not across from him, and - it's not like he's usually tongue-tied when it comes to the things he wants! Only when it involves a certain, very few people, ah...
So he hems and he haws for a few, and then eventually just
stands
and picks up his cushion
and moves it over riiight next to where Souji's put his
and sits back down.]
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If you wanted me to sit next to you, then you should have said it out loud.
[ jsyk ]
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[GOSH, SOUJI, it has nothing to do with you!! God!! Obviously! Ugh.
Ugh.
Maybe he's leaning a little against Souji's arm now, even... Apparently just sitting shoulder to shoulder Isn't Enough.]
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[ This is strange, Souji thinks, even as he leans into Kashuu a little in response. It's strange, but it doesn't feel that way. Anyway, something like this hardly qualifies as touching. Maybe that's why. ]
[ The longer they stay like this, the more Souji is tempted to pet Kashuu like he would a cat tbh. ]
So, are you happy now?
[ Are you happy that you're sitting next to him, Kashuu ]
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[What the heck, no one's brought the tsun out in full force like this in 100 years, and yet - here they are?! Good work, Souji.
He's also at pretty perfect range for headpats, okay. Please do. Please give into that temptation because he's even leaning his head toward Souji a little (though that's actually less a plea for pats and more because he wants to see if he can get away with resting it on Souji's arm.)]
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I don't, so there's no reason to get all embarrassed.
[ this is like the time he asked Mutsu if he was friends with Kashuu and Mutsu had a conniption... ]
[ Anyway, Souji's shoulders are shaking a little as he laughs, but Kashuu can totally get away with laying his head there. go for the bronze kashuu ]
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[HE'S DEFINITELY EMBARRASSED and he's just making it worse for himself, honestly?! UGH.
But.
He's also 100% going for the bronze and laying his head there. Aw yeah, mission success - even if Souji's shoulders are shaking and it makes for a bit of a bumpy pillow, THAT'S FINE. He feels more content now.]
ugh that icon
[ Anyway, his laughing fit caused by Kashuu's Tsun finally subsides, even though Kashuu's protests are totally lame because he's obviously embarrassed. Souji shifts just a little, but only to press in closer so they're both more comfortable. Then he raises his hand, the free one, to hover in front of Kashuu's face and ]
[ flicks him lightly on the forehead. ]
At least you're not letting it stop you.
[ Stop Kashuu from being touchy, he means. He only has a vast amount of respect for people who do things they're totally embarrassed by. Like Hijikata when he's writing bad poetry. ]
his dumb faces... soujis earning them all
No okay ugh, what the heck, that's not the headpat he wanted. His nose scrunches up, but he just turns his face in toward Souji's arm instead to keep his IRRITATING HAND AT BAY. Rude.]
I said I'm not embarrassed, okay! It's just-- I just, like... [Ah, that's when you know the tsuntsun streak has been riled. When he actually has trouble articulating things...]
...I mean, it's not like I mind being able to come visit you or anything! But it would be nice if you weren't always so, like, over there! While I'm over here!
UGh what a tsungumi
I see. So in other words, you want to be around me more often.
[ Good thing Souji didn't get hit by the tsun bug. He can say all these embarrassing things with a straight face. ]
HE'S THE BIGGEST TSUNGUMI for now...
I— [HNGH. UGH. He's choking up. His words are getting stuck. Is this what Lili feels like all the time?? He pulls away and shoves Souji instead because he's five years old.]
Maybe! I just like being by your side, that's all!
[INTERNAL SCREAMING.]
"for now" 1/2
[ but wow, Kashuu said it. the most embarrassing thing Souji has heard from someone to date. Even more embarrassing than some of the things Chizuru has said. Congratulations, Kashuu. You're an otome heroine, but the tsun kind. ]
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[ his body sways a little from the shove (and from the laughter). stop making him laugh he's gonna tb. but he calms down long enough to right himself, still grinning. Long enough for him to raise a hand ]
[ and rest it on Kashuu's head, his palm on the tsukumogami's forehead like he's gonna shove Kashuu back. ]
I guess it's a good thing that I don't mind your company then.
[ okay so maybe Souji's kind of tsun too ]
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But is this... headpat? Headpat?? A headpat of his very own?! He squints a little at first, like he's bracing for the shove to follow, but it... doesn't?! What does this mean. And ugh, he can't even be that mad that Souji's still being a jerk because he sees that tsuntsun sentiment there and he understands it and maybe he's feeling a tiny friendship doki in this moment.]
...Good! 'Cause I'm really nice company to have!
[HUFFS AND PUFFS and maybe leans forward a little like please pat my head.]
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[ The master can tsun as well as the sword!!! ]
[ But not as well, because Souji looks down at Kashuu leaning in and promptly does not resist the urge that is also calling at him, now that his hand is conveniently on Kashuu's head. He moves his hand up and musses up Kashuu's hair for a second. Then, Souji finally, finally pats him. ]
[ Not once, but twice. Then he sort of starts stroking Kashuu's head like he's a cat because now that he's started he can't stop?! But he doesn't find anything wrong with this picture?! He just wants to pat Kashuu?! ugh there's even an absence of internal screaming ]
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FINALLY.
It's been a long time since he's gotten headpats, okay... From a Souji anyway since he's pretty much constantly running up to other people like "PAT MY HEAD!!! TELL ME I DID GOOD!!" but he can't do that with Souji because It's Complicated™ and he's tired and he tsuns so hard that it makes him even more tired but
that's fine now because... he got his headpats.
TWO whole headpats.
And a lot of that tsuntsun melts away into satisfaction when Souji apparently decides that Kashuu is Catshuu, because this is all he's ever wanted from life, okay. Never stop.]
Yeah, well... Persistence is a good trait to have. Haruji's said so before, even.
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[ Maybe they really are more alike than he expected. And the thought doesn't even bother him. ]
I'm not surprised. [ He might not know Haru very well, but that seems exactly like the sort of thing an indulgent master would say. ]
You could try being a little more honest too. [ Instead of being a MEGA TSUN ] Being persistent works out a lot better when you're straightforward about it.
[ Souji Hypocrite Okita says, as he threads his fingers through Kashuu's hair and pats him on the head again... ]
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[That's... that's a partial-truth, which totally counts as additional honesty, right?! Right.
And more importantly, he doesn't want to hear this shit from Souji "I can't express emotions honestly to save my life" Okita, hot damn. LET HIM REST!! ...Even though he probably could rest here if he really wanted to. The weight of Souji's palm on his head is nostalgic and warm, and even now, it makes him feel safe and wanted. He doesn't feel as ridiculously hungry for attention anymore either, since he's being paid plenty of it now... Honestly, this is - pretty nice. Comforting. He hadn't really been feeling anxious in the first place, but it somehow seems like more tension leaves his shoulders every time Souji's hand smooths down his hair or musses it up or pats his head.
So-- since he's feeling so at home, he lets himself curl up against Souji's side a little, tucking his head down and leaning heavily against his arm.]
...Anyway, thanks for letting me come over.
ugh what a moe
[ anyway, what a cute. That is, the way Kashuu folds into him is met only with a bit of surprise and not surprise in the "what are you doing" way and more of the "I didn't think you actually liked my company this much, but since you're here I don't dislike it" way. Kashuu's less of a cat and more like a person Souji just wants to spoil now... Souji stops, drawing his hand back from Kashuu. ]
[ But then he wraps the arm Kashuu was leaning against around the tsukumogami instead, pulling him to his chest in a one-armed hug. ]
You're welcome.
[ Cheerfully, as if Souji totally didn't do something uncharacteristic and otome. and he brings up his free hand to resume patting Kashuu, because of course he has to. It makes Souji happy, so why not? ]
POINTS AT UR TAG TBH i cant believe this
Not that Kashuu's complaining! Though he does look ready to do just that as soon as the headpats stop, he's placated immediately by the closeness that follows. He likes being spoiled, so of course he loves hugs and being held as much as he enjoys headpats... There is no form of spoiling that he's truly immune to.
Quietly, a part of him wonders if this sort of thing is the reason the Souji he remembers attracted such soft-hearted people. Even though his reputation is awful, it's easy to forget that in the face of so much comfort, isn't it? For him, at least - even though boy, on any other day, he sure would be filled with Conflict™ right now. Today, he can only feel grateful that he's being humored. It's a lonely feeling, when you want to be held but no one is willing to do that.]
—I could fall asleep right here, probably.
[It's an idle, muffled statement after a few moments of silence that Kashuu is too comfortable to fill up with his usual chattiness.]
i screamed while i wrote this ur welcome
Oh? Even though you're not sleepy often? How rare.
[ Souji jokes, echoing Kashuu i'm not sleepy im TIRED Kiyomitsu. But he also sounds softer, far more affectionate than he's ever been used to being around anyone. It is comfortable staying like this. A different sort of comfort Souji took from an empty apartment. It's the warmer sort, the kind that comes with the company of people Souji likes best. How strange. Did that mean he thought of Kashuu as someone like that? ]
[ Well, the thing Souji's sure of at the moment is that stroking Kashuu's head is satisfying, and that he doesn't feel an urge to stop. ]
If you want to sleep, then go ahead. I don't have anywhere else to be.
[ Maybe he should take a nap too... ]
IM LOSIN MY SHIT im about to make it worse
Look, it's just, like - I dunno. Cozy here or something!
[SAID IN FULL TSUNTSUN but he sure isn't moving, either. Does he even realize how embarrassing half the shit he says is?? No, no he doesn't, since he seems perfectly fine with just admitting these things out loud.
But even though he's verbally tsunning, his expression is pretty much the most content ever, since his head is ducked and he knows Souji can't see it. This is nice, he thinks. It makes his heart feel full and warm, hearing that kind of affection, just having a place to rest where he feels safe. He hopes he won't have any nightmares like this.]
...I'm gonna take a quick nap, then. Just a quick one, 'kay?
[That's enough for him. He'll fully curl up right against Souji's side, tilting his head so he can still get his pats, and then--
Suddenly, some sakura petals drift by. Did Souji leave a window open? Did they just lock into a route??
No. No, it's only Kashuu Kiyomitsu the ridiculous sword, so content that he's reached sakura fubuki status. A few petals definitely just materialized out of nowhere around his head, what the fuck.]
i still can't believe this
[ And then looks confused as sakura petals suddenly flutter all over Kashuu's head??? That gets him to stop headpatting for a second, instead scooping up a petal and looking down at it. ]
[ It's a petal. From a flower. ]
[ ???? ]
[ He picks up a couple more, gathering them in his palm. He has half a mind to ask Kashuu about it, but even the appearance of random ass petals can't wholly convince him to disturb Kashuu's "quick" nap. He'll just tuck these into his sleeves and wait till Kashuu wakes up. ]
WE SHOT FOR THE STARS........
It seems that he really was feeling a little sleepy, since he stirs when the headpats stop but otherwise seems content to just stay where he is. It'll probably be an hour or so before he wakes up again... SO MUCH FOR "QUICK NAP".]
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ugh my new name
ur new superhero name
ugh i just changed my plurk name, now its official
oh my god
POINTS AT EYES POINTS AT U a hero is born
i was responsible for this
i hope youre proud
I AM
GOOD!!!
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the real reason im dust is bc i tag after 99 months
DUST IN THE WIND.....